Friday, December 22, 2006

this fish is drunk fish

so this is it, huh? life without jenn? there are days when i'm not sure if i am up to it. it's like missing an essential part of you. one that infuriated you, made you elated, destroyed you to help you rebuild again... in other words was all the things i need and she's just not...

tonight, after six months i am angry, i am reaching out to touch..., i am still.

i plan to drink... well i am drinking lots of wine. you'd be proud of me lov, you found "cheep red wine" with it's brown paper label - i found "house wine" with cheep white and black label. i drink in honor of my dearest friend, my sparing partner, my co-collaborator and well, just you, jenn.

i miss you darlink.


p.s. i'm your huckleberry

17 little fish:

Blogger anne swam up to say...

Hey missy... If you don't mind, I'll drink along with you.

12:36 PM  
Anonymous ghostie alix swam up to say...

*raises glass*
to jenn!

hugs, mysfit. that's all i can really say.

10:23 PM  
Blogger Carl V. swam up to say...

Merry Christmas sure isn't appropriate but I hope you know that you have all, including our lost fish, been in my thoughts over this holiday season.

12:42 PM  
Blogger mysfit swam up to say...

you are all invited to have a glass a wine with me and raise your wrists to good cheer for the coming year! you are all in my thoughts! merry christmas (a bit late) and happy new year (a bit early)!

7:28 PM  
Blogger {illyria} swam up to say...

the season sure was made for some heavy reminiscing. missing jenn too. my love to all the fish.

4:41 AM  
Blogger Carl V. swam up to say...

I'll take you up on that invite, Mysfit.

11:39 AM  
Blogger JP swam up to say...

This really is time for a Sandman quoatation.

To absent friends, lost loves, old gods, and the season of mists; and may each and every one of us always give the Devil his due.

From Hob Gadling to all of us, and may our bottles of cheap red wine always sparkle and taste fine, if a little sweeter than is probably refined...

Cheers. :)

11:20 PM  
Blogger Suzanna Danna swam up to say...

Happy Holidays and a most Happy and Joyous New Years to you and yours Mysfit. I am a little late, and for that, I will raise two glasses... AT WORK. Much love to both you and Oldben. My thoughts and wishes are with both of you.

10:21 AM  
Anonymous Anonymous swam up to say...

Ahhh Mysfit, she was with us in Montana and had lots of fun raining down hail and snow on us as we gathered by the fire to toast her. She was whistling through the pines and swirling the smoke all around us. She always was such a playful being. Miss her much, my heart reaches out to all of you. She is still hanging around making sure all is well. It will be someday.....
Cynthia sometimes known as "other mom" xxxooo

11:54 PM  
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4:49 AM  
Blogger Nocturnal swam up to say...

That's quite some time, sorry to hear things haven't improved.

Take care.

2:14 AM  
Blogger IanBradley swam up to say...

has it been six months? I suppose in six years I'll be thinking, "Has it been six years?" I cant get through a day without her comming up and making me remember something fun or cool, or just absurd even that hapened while she was around. Right now it was the trip to NYC to see Rigoletto. That was just the craziest luck and it was awesome.
*hugs* (for mysfit, for oldben, for Cynthia, John-the biggest little brother i have ever seen, and Bob whom i credit to this day for what little I know about tasting wine)

1:28 PM  
Blogger DeeM swam up to say...

Better late than never, right?
Cheers, love. :-)

10:41 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous swam up to say...

Just re-read all of this, remembering her,realizing how much we are all hurting. She still is so alive in our minds, thats what makes it so hard to believe she is gone. I read the "old fishies" and think she is still here. I guess maybe because she really is still here just in another "life form". Cyn/o.m.

8:46 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous swam up to say...

p.s. sorry about the rambling, too much wine. cyn

8:48 PM  
Blogger Carl V. swam up to say...

You're not rambling at all Cynthia, believe me those of us who only 'knew' Jenn from the internet appreciate going through the grieving/healing/remembering process with you.

11:44 AM  
Blogger Elenka swam up to say...

day-dreaming, one day, about you, girl!

*(a picture of the eye of Horus, not the actual word)

eye* see
scrolls of fine metal foils
rolling out from a machine
printing your icons
like pieces of Pythagoras
...a serum sweetly divined
like some forgotten wine
rhyming theorems
never looked so good
on transcripts of lucid botany
intricate drawings
so fragile and delicate
shimmering from the insights of your mind
i'd trade you a sea shanty
or an Egyptian pound
for one of your apples
or bundles of grapes
or even one of those
smiles of yours...

miss you, Jenn!!!
love you... think about ya every time i hear a cool song ;) right now i like this song called "soda water" by jess klein (?) and another song by vaya con dios, "don't cry for louie"...

ah, time for more pirating! (Oo - just learned a new geological term : "pirate stream" -- it's a stream that diverts into its own flow into the headwaters of another stream, river, etc. ... searles' raid coming up....)


12:52 PM  

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