Tuesday, August 08, 2006

sometimes even a fish must face reality and grin

dear jennsee,

i guess there comes a time to remove your mask and smile at the world. you never let anyone forget that they were dealing with jenn, only jenn and they should learn to love it or just keep on going.

on the other hand, i have always aspired to separate myself from my creative life. there were soapbox ideals behind this initial intention but there are times to step down from the soapbox and face yourself one on one. but you knew this. you taught me this and tried to drag me out from behind my games of smoke and mirrors. i know you are pleased as punch that i decided to post the image of us and that is why i can handle it. i am here to make you happy afterall, or at least, partially sane.

you were anything but anonymous so why should i hide? i think i owe our friends in the blogosphere at least a little of the frankness that they have always given us.

while i was packing i unearthed some things that i wish to share and in order to do so i must put aside the cracked mask and face my own anonymity, name or no name. so here's the cover of a birthday card you made for me. do you remember it?

(the inside of the card can be our little secret)

a good friend can take you out of your comfort zone and make you like it. a great friend can take the comfort zone out of you and make you not miss it. so here i am swimming in the deep end and why am i not surprised that it's all your fault, jenn darling?


8 little fish:

Blogger IanBradley swam up to say...

There she is! I seeeeee you!

Old Ben! *hug*

Cynthia! *more hug*

3:45 AM  
Blogger Carl V. swam up to say...

Thanks for sharing that Mysfit. Love it. Her artwork on this reminds me of a favorite bizarre comic called Meat Cake by Dame Darcy.

Miss you Jenn See!

Hello and good thoughts to you Cynthia and Old Ben and Mysfit.

10:43 AM  
Blogger mysfit swam up to say...

i love her artwork - i used to try to get her to draw all the time, but she got really caught up in poetry and photography - which really is fine by me :)

1:15 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous swam up to say...

I love this but can you send me a larger copy so I can read all of it. You know Jenn and her wonderful "chicken scratch" though this isn't too bad. O.M.

10:24 AM  
Blogger mysfit swam up to say...

o.m. - if you click on the picture it should come up in your browser with the view set to fit in window - you can change this by clicking on the icon that appears in the lower right hand corner (looks like a picture with blue arrows on each corner) - you can also save it at that size

of course this may only work with internet explorer - if you still have trouble let me know and i'll drop you the pic when i get a chance.

10:51 AM  
Blogger mysfit swam up to say...

Here's the poem just in case you can't read her handwriting (i spent many years training as a jennsee translator):

For you, love:
Strange man laughing down the street
strange man eyes the stranger
girl the east coast never knows
high Boots, sky boots,
lift me up before you die boots
she goes dancing with shadows
skips her stones curb to curb
cups the silences of blank page
between knuckles, snapping skin & bone
she rings ears like she wears voices
down the street, laughing
songs from under tables, laughing
down the street, laughing
strangers in the dark.

11:07 AM  
Anonymous Anonymous swam up to say...

I really like this poem, Jenn. The shifting perspective. Like a dream.

9:51 AM  
Blogger Elenka swam up to say...

what a lovely drawing!! i would have guessed jenn also drew, though i never saw much (any?) of it -- this is so cool! i miss her so much. i wrote her yesterday, how i was listening to billie holiday ( a cool remix)... and, i dunno, just made me think of her...

12:15 AM  

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