Thursday, July 06, 2006

a scattered fishbrain

the fish has been a painful place for me lately, that's why i've been absent. not that i've been here that much at all. either way...

cynthia says hi and that she loves you.

i dreamt that i went to heaven and hell. they were the same place. kinda like a nightclub called heaven and hell, which is more or less what sonic told me tenjou tenge means.


odd thing was, everyone there was still alive. penny said that jenn wasn't there because she had gone off to be universal.

my timeless love.

it hurts like nothing else, but i've got an assortment of masks and can wear them well. it takes a lot of effort to even get up, but i managed to make it back to work today.

obvious questions, says charlie chan, but we gotta go!

i want to post the scholarship fund information. there will be a website to follow, but for now donations may be sent to

"Jan-Ai Scholarship Fund"
c/o Bob Walker
P.O Box 8068
Atlantic City, N.J. 08404

jan-ai was a nickname given to jenn by her father when she was a little girl and means lover of people. since cynthia and family will do a much better job at explaining jan-ai in depth on the website than i will here, i'll let it be at that.

i'm jerry.
this is the space i occupy and this is my immediate vicinity. i'm staring down infinity and looking upon...
rocketboy is lying on his back at that point where the water barely touches the sand before receding, howling at an empty sky, for there is no moon.
'tell me about pain, jerry.'
'look at the sea.'
'tell me about loss, jerry.'
'just look at the sea.'

9 little fish:

Blogger mysfit swam up to say...

welcome back :)
so we've decided that it wasn't food related - about 13 people who went to this b-day party on monday got sick (which could have been the potato salad) but then hamlet got sick too and he wasn't at the party - so we're thinking some sort of stomach bug.
hope you're feeling better

10:22 AM  
Anonymous Anonymous swam up to say...

Welcome back one and all. Miss you soooo much. I feel like I am connecting with her by reading all your posts. Onward and upward as I try and go about my day. Cynthia

11:15 AM  
Blogger mysfit swam up to say...

i keep thinking this is a dream and any minute she'll come from around that tree and...

5:43 PM  
Blogger Dirk Fung swam up to say...

Hi Mysfit,

My deepest and most sincere condolences for the passing of Jennsee. While I only knew her online through my and your blog, when you told me the news I felt as though I had lost a close friend as well. I'm there for both of you in spirit, and I wish you the best.

Your tribute to her is beautiful. Keep it up, and I'll make an effort to keep visiting.


9:19 PM  
Blogger Dirk Fung swam up to say...

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1:53 AM  
Blogger Dirk Fung swam up to say...

Hi again,

I hope you don't mind, I dedicated a post on my blog to you and Jenn See. Please let me know if that's ok.


2:00 AM  
Blogger Carl V. swam up to say...

It is good to hear from you all. I know it helps me alot to come over here and see posts continuing. I was listening to Snow Patrol's new song "Chasing Cars" the other day and hurting for you. Its especially hard on Fridays, for me, because it was around this time 2 weeks ago that I learned the news and the wound is still very fresh. Please know that you are in my thoughts and prayers and that Jenn's encouragement and inspiration lives on.

11:33 AM  
Anonymous M swam up to say...

As a passer-by, I am greatly saddened by the passing of such a talented observer of life. Please accept my deepest sympathy.

5:27 PM  
Blogger Nocturnal swam up to say...

hmmm, i wonder what the cover charge was.


5:06 AM  

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