a scattered fishbrain

the fish has been a painful place for me lately, that's why i've been absent. not that i've been here that much at all. either way...

cynthia says hi and that she loves you.

i dreamt that i went to heaven and hell. they were the same place. kinda like a nightclub called heaven and hell, which is more or less what sonic told me tenjou tenge means.


bomb-a-head

odd thing was, everyone there was still alive. penny said that jenn wasn't there because she had gone off to be universal.

my timeless love.

it hurts like nothing else, but i've got an assortment of masks and can wear them well. it takes a lot of effort to even get up, but i managed to make it back to work today.

obvious questions, says charlie chan, but we gotta go!

i want to post the scholarship fund information. there will be a website to follow, but for now donations may be sent to

"Jan-Ai Scholarship Fund"
c/o Bob Walker
P.O Box 8068
Atlantic City, N.J. 08404

jan-ai was a nickname given to jenn by her father when she was a little girl and means lover of people. since cynthia and family will do a much better job at explaining jan-ai in depth on the website than i will here, i'll let it be at that.


i'm jerry.
this is the space i occupy and this is my immediate vicinity. i'm staring down infinity and looking upon...
rocketboy is lying on his back at that point where the water barely touches the sand before receding, howling at an empty sky, for there is no moon.
'tell me about pain, jerry.'
'look at the sea.'
'tell me about loss, jerry.'
'just look at the sea.'